My Heart Is Broken.

Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than to be home,
Listening to the crickets’ sounds,
Outside the windows.
Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than in the bed,
Closing my eyes,
Falling into a deep sleep,
To forget about the days,
Forget about the nights,
Forget about you.

Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep,
To forget that you are gone,
To forget your lies,
Forget the way,
You told me,
You never loved me,
Forget the way,
You looked at me,
When you left me,
I want to forget,
I want to leave this world,
Close my eyes,
Fall to sleep to stop the heart,
From beating.

I block my ears,
From hearing the sounds,
Like your voice,
Like when you sing to me,
Those lovely songs,
They sounded to tender,
Now they kill me,
They hurt me,
I don’t want to hear anything,
Don’t want to hear the waves,
Hitting against the sand,
Don’t want to hear the birds,
Chirping outside the windows.
Don’t want to see my face,
Don’t want to see you,
Don’t want anything,
That has to do with you,
I want to close,
I want to block away,
The world to stop the pain,
In my heart.
I want my heart to stop beating,
To stop bleeding,
From your words,
Your lies.

worthless

Was it worth the the countless hours?

My mind still races and never stops asking.

Then I ask myself was it worth all those beautiful flowers?

Or was something in their color lacking?

Was it worth the time we spent together?

Or was I just replaceable, like old, brown, cheap leather

Did the days in the park mean anything, as the hot warm sun shined down upon my lover?


The numerous memories we had together, you blew away as if light as a feather.

And the fruitful dreams I had of YOU turned to nightmares cold and black

Because the pain I felt from you was worse than searing burns upon my back.

You showed no sorrow, for the heart you turned hallow, so I had no choice but to follow.

So I left my empty heart and tried to take another’s, like you had shown

But the sounds of tears from another heart did nothing to fill my own

Was it worth going through so many others, after my heart was shattered apart?

For the pain still remains in the bottom of my heart

What now?

I looked forward to sleep.
Sometimes I dream, and you are there.
And then
I realize,
Here's the reality of my life I've come to hate.
Careless whispers heated the coldness of my smile.
Once upon a time,
Long sexy strokes of confidence coloured my skin,
Because then,
You were there.
I don't know if I'll ever forget
How you made everything to me
Seem complete.
You were the passion underneath the harshness of those tidal waves.
They used to sink me and drown me.
And then,
You gave your breath to me,
And then
I tasted the sweet flavor of life.
Now, I need to break the intricate web,
You have woven around me.
Safety cradles me like a soft lullaby.
But then,
That was the only song I wanted to hear.
And then, you threw it away.
Bittersweet sensations,
Lingered like an unwanted scar.
You hid me far away from the painful truth,
And then
You tossed your heart high into the nighttime sky.
Far enough,
I cried because I couldn't see it.
Now, I look forward to sleep.
I can dream,
When you were there.
But like love insatiable,
You remain where memories call like haunting winds.